Flute/Drama

Today I am writing about two things. I am kind of frustrated, so I need to rant about it. I apologize in advance. It is angsty. :P


K, so yesterday in band we started concert music. Which was great the one song we played had Jaws music and Hot Cross Buns lol, but then it got to flute solos. The only flutes are me and one other person. She is really good at flute…I am not. I am wondering if I should do band Junior and Senior year. Of course I want to, but honestly the only people who are in band at Eastlake are the ones who are really passionate about music and plan to do more than just be in the school band. Well, I am not one of those people. Honestly, while we were playing we had a #C trill…I could not even remember if the "#” was a natural or a sharp sign. Are you firetrucking kidding me?! What the hell am I doing in band if I cannot even tell if that is a sharp or natural C?! I mean I do not even know the Db scale!! Somebody told me, I think it may have been Rogers, “The band is only as good as its worst player.” Which, come on, I am pretty bad. I do not even know most of the notes. I cannot even play the Fight Song. How many firetrucking times have we played that?! I mean really what the hell am I doing in band?! It is just so frustrating not being able to play the music. I mean I guess if I deal with Rogers then I must be…somewhat passionate about band, right? Meh and it makes me mad when people are like “You are better at the flute than me.” Maybe because you have never played it, but if you have I am sure you would be better at it. Bleh L -sigh- k now on to my next frustration topic, drama. (ooh transition sentence…nice!)


So last Tuesday at Drama Team we started doing improv! Which I was excited about…until I had to go up there…and I totally sucked. The first activity I did okey at I guess. We had to make the other person open there fist. I accomplished this by Concentration (Patty-Cake did not work). Then somebody else had to make me open my fist. They said I was in a dream and a blue and red pill were in my hand and I had to pick. To this I replied “If this is a dream…then I am in control and I do not have to take the pills.” I felt so smart xD but then they kicked me off the stage because I said no :P ah well lol. Then today I was excited to go to drama club. We started out with park bench, which is the same as the open fist activity. I went up there and just could not think of what to do…so I just creepily stared at the person. Talking is not my strong point…although nothing really is :P It was ineffective, but he took pity on me. Then Nick came up and said “Nice day to not wear pants.” xD Oh wow Nick lol that was really funny. Then the last activity was having two people with different goals try to achieve those goals (haha Halo achievement?) and I totally failed!! Ugh I suck to badly at improve L


I really do not think I have a talent. I mean yeah I am kind of good at drawing…I guess…and I can somewhat play the flute. But everybody has something they are amazing at…I just do not. L Meh sorry people for being stupid and sad, but honestly it is frustrating L Guess that is all for this post. If it is depressing please do not read it. I cannot help it. I try, but I cannot :P To make up for it I will make a happy post J lol it is really just random info about me, but whatever xD

Peace, 
Lolo ヅ